Hope

This will be a temporary blog. I will cut down on the other blogs that I have and focus more on this for the mean time. This will be a journey of what takes place in these months as I wait on the Lord for further leading.

But I would like to start with an earlier moment than now, something that I looked back and slowly saw events come to understanding. I would like to go back to December of 2007.

December was an anxious time for me, because it is my long awaited month where I graduate from my bachelors degree. Now, I am doing my last semester in my masters at the moment but I am not feeling what I felt in December of 2007. This is because graduating from my bachelors was a more sentimental journey for me than any other. I used to be a person that gets lost in the middle of things that I can't find the end of the tunnel and December was when I saw the light. It was a significant struggle to complete my bachelors and the trials I had to go through it. It was not merely an issue about studies but a moment of character and trust. I doubted myself in my capabilities, I worried about the future and I underestimate myself. But eventually I fought my last fight and came out of my bachelors, a moment that filled my heart with joy and hope.

Life turned around a little for me after that. I fell into a relationship that I should not have and I brought heart ache to myself, a moment that left scars that I wished I do not have today. And I was on a hunt for a job. Job hunting was never so hard, economic conditions signaled its failing health early 2008 and I found myself in another tunnel that I gotten and and only had to go through.

I wanted a job that pays well yet I had no experiences. I needed a company to sponsor my stay and that's where companies cut me off right there. I needed to stay in America, I wanted to stay in Wichita, I wanted to build my life here. This went on for 4 months until April came along and tore my hope for any company to sponsor my stay. I panicked, I worried, I wonder if dad had enough money to get me through masters if I were to go back to school again..

Suddenly, joy from my graduation faded. I had to either go back to school... or go back home. 6 months of uncertainty caused me to doubt myself again...

But GOD, (as always)... comes to the rescue. God held me here with funds to pursue my masters and more than that, he gave me the love of my life.

As mentioned, I am nearing my end at Wichita State University. I have the love of my life in New York, which I am dying to be close to and I am hoping for a job in New York to start a new chapter of my life. Plan A has established its course... but God knows the future and plan A may never come to pass. Even as I go through these few months left of the year, I hope to draw myself into a bigger revelation to my path and my future with God for the new chapter that's to come...

"God never makes mistakes, and I believe in Him" ~ Glee

I am a follower of Jesus, but not everyone reading this is one. But I would like to extend a welcome to anyone reading this to take a piece of hope with you in your moment "In The Waiting"... walk with me...