Redemption

God always have his ways to humble me. And it surely never fails to do so with pictures and reminding me where I came from. Old pictures bring reminiscence of shame and guilt that used to fill my young and foolish days.

So very often I am put to my place understanding that I am one for judging but God is gracious and merciful to bring redemption. A few days back someone shared to me about how it is hard to share the gospel because we are always reminded about how flawed we are and it brings us to a place of incredibility. And I thought to myself... If not me, who is more unworthy than me that I am now pursuing a life to share the gospel to people.

Meeting up with old friends and having my journey with seminary made into a hype by them and me knowing myself, feel dirty and unworthy to be taken with such high regards, I felt a little sick to ponder over it. I know my sins and even those that I know of are already foul, what more are those that  are hidden from my knowledge.

Then God spoke... that we are not called to live and portray a life of perfection, but to live and show a life of redemption. Perfection is never reach on this side of heaven, but redemption is, and redemption is God's intention simply because redemption points towards God.

I am humbled by my mistakes and my past but I cannot deny the work done on the cross to free me to spread the good news.