Association

I have to be very careful and selective about the kind of movies that I watch and for very good reasons to my personal temperament.

I just watched a movie about crime and the life that revolves around it. There is a sense of undefined security that is ever watching over the shoulders, there is brokenness in marriage and relationships, dealings with family and the law, there is betrayal and deception. The movie was a huge pile of uncertainty and insecurity, that by the end of the movie I felt sick inside.

I just took a first-aid training last weekend and I went through a short moment of light-headedness that I almost passed out while simulating an administration of insulin shot. And the countless of the other blood related situations that has caused me to faint.

The issue that was brought to my mind about myself is that I fond myself to be easily assimilated with sympathetic association. In other words, I cannot help but to find myself feeling what others feel in light of the things that are happening. I was drawn into the movie and the dealings of that life and found myself feeling depressed over it. I sympathized the victim whose blood keeps flowing out of his body or whatever pain that plagued him.

So much to how is the same with a lot of people when they listen to music and finding themselves identifying to the song and aligning their feelings to the song itself. My imagination goes wild with exaggeration for almost anything that I put my mind to and it has not always served me well every time.

What is this gift or curse of self association...?