For the most part as I see the development of my life looks rather slow, as I compare myself with people of my peers. Some of my former classmates are now having more than 1 kids now, they found themselves at the place where there are stable in the course of their lives.
Bu then on the other hand, I saw something else that surprised me about my development. I do not necessarily know what being a 31 year old should be like but I realized how much I have gained in areas where some people my age are yet to find themselves understanding.
This is not a bragging moment for me, nor is this a judging entry. I am however learning to discover myself a little more that God has been working on in me for the past 10 years or so. Events that has taken place in my life has been such life changing moments that I can no longer look at certain aspects of life the same again. So much so that even when I share some of these stories with people, more than half of them are puzzled by the situations I have been.
But more than anything I want people to get out form my experience is more than just a life that has shown me the wisdom of His ways but more accurately is the grace of God that has worked in me.
I have and always will be the person that does not shy away form telling how weak I am to the world. So much so that people around me would start to feel uncomfortable with my confessions. Of course I am not spelling out every single detail of my life but when needed I am a person that will share my views and experience that portrays my weaknesses.
The weird part is that when people come to me and start comforting me about my weakness and telling me that I am not that bad. But what people are not aware that they are judging me from a humanly perspective and it is also a probability that they themselves make the same mistakes as I do. Telling me that I am not that bad and they are just as bad does not make me feel any better, because my guilt comes from the reflection of God's standard, not by human means. The only way that I feel truly comforted is when someone acknowledges my sins and weaknesses but in turn lifts me up with the amazing grace of God.
But more than anything I want people to get out form my experience is more than just a life that has shown me the wisdom of His ways but more accurately is the grace of God that has worked in me.
I have and always will be the person that does not shy away form telling how weak I am to the world. So much so that people around me would start to feel uncomfortable with my confessions. Of course I am not spelling out every single detail of my life but when needed I am a person that will share my views and experience that portrays my weaknesses.
The weird part is that when people come to me and start comforting me about my weakness and telling me that I am not that bad. But what people are not aware that they are judging me from a humanly perspective and it is also a probability that they themselves make the same mistakes as I do. Telling me that I am not that bad and they are just as bad does not make me feel any better, because my guilt comes from the reflection of God's standard, not by human means. The only way that I feel truly comforted is when someone acknowledges my sins and weaknesses but in turn lifts me up with the amazing grace of God.
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