Comfort in His Presence

I am a little under the weather today with congestion in my head...

Today as my class is in Rockland, I hitch a ride with one of my classmates up state. One thing I have noticed about his driving is that he seems to jerk on the gas pedal even on a straight open road with no cars. His control is not very subtle and having to have congestion I was feeling rather light headed and after 30 minutes of jerky driving on the freeway, I began to feel sick to my stomach.

I hate it when this happens as my mind takes me to the worst scenario and my body reacts to that imagination and I begin to get dizzy. The journey was about 10 more minutes before the destination and I did not know how much longer I could take it and I just closed my eyes and started thinking of happy thoughts... which is funny because I never resolve to have to think about happy thoughts to feel better. My desperation demanded an urgent solution.

Something unique happened during my process of having happy thoughts, I begin to look out the window and up into the clouds where everything seems so clam. I begin to imagine Jesus hugging me so tightly in the stillness of His presence and the thought of Him having control of everything in the world somehow made me felt better. There was such a peace that surged through me as I regained better conscience, tears started flowing down my cheeks and I never felt such refuge and protection in the midst of a difficult moment then.

For a moment there I say telling myself that I am ready to go... I am ready to be where God is, I am ready and eager to be in His presence.