Heightened Phobia

The extension of age, is the extension possibilities...

I am finding that I am losing control part of my imagination that virtually sides with existentialism. Where I am struggling to separate what is in my mind and what is in the forefront of reality. Because of that, the possibilities that comes from it is endless to the point where anything can happen, even things of my imagination becomes so real that my physical realm reacts to it like it is tangible.

When I was younger, I used to fear the excessive amount of blood. The sight of it brings me to a state of being light-headed and even to the point of fainting. Thinking to y self then, that I will soon grow out of this fear as I grow older and I would overcome it through sensibility. Unfortunately, this is not the case.

The subtle description of pain and simple minded thoughts about suffering and brokenness today can utterly make me break out into fear and faint in an instant. My imagination became wilder and wilder to the point that I cannot control the line drawn to separate reality.

I do not know if I am becoming more paranoid but the possibilities of anything does increase in the understanding that God is capable of doing literally anything.