What Needs to Be Done

Going to try out a small group from another church tonight...

Felt almost like I am cheating but not so. I don't know why attending another church service feels fine but attending a small group feels much more guilty.

But I need to expand my fellowship and I am trying new things. This is my new habit of doing things I never done before and doing it alone. I do not know what to expect out of all these but I want to do it because I needed this, I needed to go through all that I have feared in areas where I do not need to.

Some say that I am doing things that are not of myself but the truth is, I have ventured into many things in life that are not myself. Pursuing a life of preaching the Gospel as a life work is far from being myself. Preaching in itself is far from being myself and yet God has led me to do so.

Since leaving home over 11 years ago have one way another been an adventure that I never thought I would be doing. I have run away from so many things and it is when the more I give myself to God, the more He bring those things back for me to face.

So I am not running, if I have ever been running. I am facing this with everything I have and let God do what He needs to do to me.