I Have Much

I had a craving for chocolate tonight... which is strange seeing that I never craved for chocolate... ever!

So I decided to take a walk down Main St and see where it would lead me to chocolate.My first stop was Dunkin for maybe hot chocolate or a chocolate donuts but before I could get close to the door, I could not think that anything in Dunkin would satisfy me, even though the donuts where the most common thing I would go for.

So I walked on and stroll through the streets and ended up in Duane Reade and bought a bar of dark chocolate and shampoo. I thought I would be satisfied but not more than 2 minutes, I spontaneously dropped in a McDonald's. I must not have McDonald's for a while now and I did not know why did I start again. It wasn't like just a sandwich but a whole full meal.

Walking home, I suddenly pondered on how stupid I was for buying all those things and giving in to my weird cravings. I could not help but to realized that I really do not need any of these and I went all the way out just to get those things without much planning at all.

How easy it is to give in to our cravings desires and temptations! At the first sign of a need, we automatically dive in without a fight to reason. We are so weak to fulfill something that we have always longed for and not thinking whether it is the best decision to be made.

I may very well be talking about food but there are so much more to giving because its easy. We take the easy way, we take the convenience, we take the path of least resistance.  I must admit the many times that I gave in to thing just because it is right in front of me but failed to think carefully whether I needed to go for it. I begin to wonder if my cravings and desires are the result of a void inside that I am filling it with temporary solutions.

But that last stretch of 5 minutes walk to my apartment was somewhat special that I found a brief moment to thank God for all that He has given me and just Him alone, I have found great joy that could not be found in anyone or anything else.

So as I got home and pull out my bag of McDonald's to eat, I ate with such dissatisfaction. Not that I did not like the food but somehow I had this sense of dread taking every bite. I am not even going to eat the chocolate that I bought. All these after sensing that God has been good to me and I needed not to come out to fulfill my cravings, I realized that I have been given much.