Beauty in The Broken

This afternoon as I am listening to a short sermon, I got reminded about something of my testimony that refreshed my wandering heart. The whole idea that God can used the most broken things about a person and use it for His glory has been a beautiful analogy of His Grace to me.

I got reminded that God did not use my art skills, music skills, writing skills, cooking skills, or any other skills that I may perceive as my best qualities for His purpose. But He used my brokenness to be the very thing to being glory for Himself.

All my life I have come to hear how my anxious heart is a problem about me. My over thinking, my easily depressive built and my self doubt is the result of what I have come to perceive as a shame due to people pointing them out at me. And the truth is that people are not necessarily wrong, but God chose those very things to show His power. It was not my creative skills and all the passions and interests that I had that God revealed Himself in but in my fears and my brokenness that led me to discover God and identified with him so much more. In my brokenness is where God rushes in and defies logic and tells me how powerful He is, how incredible He is, how assuring He is and that there is no place in this world, no circumstance in my life that can stop Him from showing Himself but somehow it is in the midst of my vulnerability that He often shows up.

Romans 5:6 tells of how we seem to experience His sovereignty when we are at our lowest. That is the best time to open our eyes to God, that is the time when we let our vulnerability go and allow Him to show us how real He is.

God convinced me of my calling not because of who I am as a person experiencing church all my life, nor is it people telling me that I should be considering ministry work, but it is in the surrender of everything of myself, especially my weakness and brokenness that convinced me of the calling.

You will only find Him when you allow your vulnerability to be used by Him. When you find yourself being far from God, be utterly vulnerable to Him. When you feel like the walls of life is closing in on you because of all the pressure and expectations, your vulnerability to those things are the very factor that God wants to use to reveal Himself. And out of it is not only a fresh perspective of seeing His glory, but also a good change how the way we want to live out our lives for Him in way we never thought we would want to.