When I am Weak

Wake up! Strengthen what remains and is about to die, for

I have found your deeds unfinished in the sight of my God. 

Revelations 3:2

For the eyes of the Lord range throughout the earth to 

strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed to him...

2 Chronicles 16:9

This is something that has been gnawing at me for a while now, with many other things that I have come to talked about for the past few days.

Life gives you unexpected turns and many of which is never what we intended. These events can sometimes drive us to a point of frustration and to seek the easy ways out as I have come to given into many at times. I have often reflected on where I am and how in many ways I would be giving up on a lot of things because of the disappointments that I have come to experience. This would sometimes worry me as I have heard about so many stories of people who initially have a deep drive to love God and pursue Him but as circumstances change, they fall short and get distracted and drifted away. 

I fear that I would drift away and forget about God or maybe find myself being disillusioned by things that bombards me from the truth. I fear that I will give up because I get tired or get drawn into the wrong things. I fear that I would get drifted far away from God. Even as I am grateful that I am driven to an extend to do what He calls me to do but I worry at times that this drive would fade away in the future. 

We are all work in progress, and we are all never going to be perfect or good in all aspects of our lives but the hope is that God is continually working on us and we need to be reminded always about the process in this life. I want to be reminded regularly that God is not finished with me and I need to surrender to His work in me. I need to be fully aware of the fire that I have in me and keep it burning and to make it burn brighter as best as I can. 

But most of all, that this very moment, I am grateful that God is faithful to remind me that He is the one and only sovereign One. He will not forget me as long as I pursue my full commitment for Him. 

There are days when I would push for His purpose because I am driven by His grace and love but there are days when I am just hanging on to mysteries. Either way, I want to know and remember that He is my reason for everything, and in Him everything will be made meaningful and worth pursuing. In Him will I only draw strength from.