Discernment

I know that I have tendencies to have panicky moments from time to time where my heart runs so fast that it only paralyzes me to move forward. It is not surprising that people will tell me to relax.

However, I become critical to specific people when it comes to telling me to relax. I say this because that it amazes me that some people take things lightly and tells me that I should learn to do the same. Although I believe that I do need to relax at times, but I feel that there is a reason for me being cautious and thorough with the things I do and I am not necessarily trying to be uptight for no reason.

I am rather disappointed having to hear about someone pouring their troubles to me now simply due to realizing there are more to the situation than they thought, when earlier this person keeps telling me to relax. I felt like my cautiousness was disregarded earlier and now they come to me and cry out for the very same concerned I had earlier.

Now, part of me is upset because I felt disrespected but another part of me sympathize for this person because I know the struggle that is presented. But what really convicts me is the fact that I doubted myself for overthinking the situation because I was told to relax. I doubted myself for being cautious for no reason when there is a legitimate reason for it. I feel like I get played and influenced by certain people that are more persuasive than I thought.

So as much as being disappointed by the outcome, I am also feeling a little better knowing that I am not overthinking things. Believing that if I have submitted my heart and mind to God with what I cannot control, He will tell me what needs to be looked into and I should not give doubt to anything that comes to my mind but to carefully examine it as plausible concern.