Emotional Triggers

Funny how I thought that I was good at journaling but I have found new challenges that are new to me after writing for all these years.

Last night as I was thinking through hard about expressing what exactly triggers my specific emotions and I found it hard to zero in on it. I was asked about what are the things that makes me angry and what are the things that make me happy. These were rather unique questions to me all of the sudden simply because I realized that I tend to zoom out and look at the big picture so much that I forget the little details that affects me; of which I may very have some sort of control over them to help understand myself a little more.

I need to be able to say even if in the most cliche way what are the things that upsets me and what brings me joy. By all means, these are just details which may help lead to deeper understanding for something more significant.

I may have a bad day but I need to identify if certain people in particular made me felt that way. The more the occurrences would then lead me to find out why would these individuals affect me so much. Is it have to do with something they do, they beliefs, their attitude, their behaviors and such? Or has it got to do with me in what I do, my beliefs, my attitude, my behavior and so forth? I would hate to conclude that I can never be good friends with certain people just because I could not get along with them because lately I have discovered several people that I connected with in which I never thought I could in the beginning. Vice versa, where I thought I could connect well with certain people that I now find myself drawing a distance from them for unique reasons.

What makes you feel the way you do today?