In The Waiting

Is it because I'm empty
something long overdue
is it because I placed my trust
in something with no truth

Is it because I am hanging on
misplacing my hopes
of circumstances around me
when I walked this road

What are the reasons
for this moment to pass
something of a phase
or something of a test

My time is running thin
I am pushing the boundaries
because I want to let go
but I am not allowed to sin

I am holding my ropes
apparently also holding yours
is this expected of me
to keep up this tug of war

I am running in your mission
like the only thing that exists
but I now exhausted my strength
bidding your to do list

Is this my passive aggression
a bottling of my concerns
that I need to consider the margins
pacing in your discern

but I see nothing of new
but a repeating record
cares little for sacrifice
let alone for my comfort

So I will wallow as I please
I will hide in my cave
to care for my own needs now
for your pain I cannot save