Pseudo Community

It is hard to sink in when someone tells me that he or she is lonely when they grew up here and they have family around within an hour of travel...

It is even harder when someone perceives me in the light that even in the midst of ministry that I am constantly surrounded by people to take my time when the truth is that it is very the opposite. The more I get into ministry, the more people that are close to me slowly filters out. It is mostly people who have established a life here and have all access to every single avenue here and expect that all who are here should have the same.

I do not need time to think and figure out life as it is, I have been thinking all my life, if anything I should be thinking lesser. But at this period as I wait patiently for God, and even in the best of expectations for His surprises, I still do witness brokenness that comes from hypocrisy. The church speaks for community and fellowship but how many community and fellowship are truly genuine, but rather a self protected agenda to gain what helps self first then only to others.

The end of Acts 2 is a typical model of church that everyone wants to mold after but much are speaking over actions in this comfort zones of ours as we are left with the self again.

Where can Jesus be found if not in the intentional coming together for the fellowship of spiritual growth, the commonality of life, and that resulting attraction to such a life by those watching from the outside... Where are we now?