In The Waiting

I attended a party tonight in an area in Brooklyn that I have not been to before. Although I had a long time contemplating if I wanted to go, I decided that I should reach out and connect with friends that I have not connect with for a while.

2 major things stood out to me tonight. One was about my interaction with people and the other was about brokenness. I only know 3 to 4 people at the party and I decided that I should at least talk to more people than that and I did. I begin to find myself stepping into a side of me that I was never comfortable with but I managed to break in and identified a different side of me that is often shied by my reserve nature.

I learned that even at all levels, most people are found to be in some sort of uncertainty among new people and depending on where we place out security, it will determine how much confidence we have to approach a stranger. Tonight, when all I thought about was that I am a guy that has found security in Christ and with that in mind, I had peace in speaking my mind and to interact with people that I do not know. With that in mind, I began to see brokenness in people that I usually do not see and my heart drift to sympathy. My conversation was geared towards getting to know people in the manner of love and the questions and answers all stemmed from that.

Then as I took my leave and headed back home, I walked passed a public argument on the street that involved money, to which could easily be avoided by careful handling. But often some of these issues are dealt with harshness and fights that in the end leads to dissension. This led me to wonder how easy it is for people to lose their patience simply because they do not have the capacity to understand.

Our perception of our reality is informed by the things that we have experienced and the people that influence us. We see life with the perspective that is steered by very specific individuals that matters to us; be it parents, siblings, teachers, pastors, friends, or simply even a famous personality. They shape our decisions and fears subconsciously and therefore make decisions by what we are shown. I remembered how much changes that has taken place in my life where I can see stark differences in the way I react to circumstance in my life. Much to it is simply comparing the life that I have in the past and what I am experiencing today and wondered how much more of life can be different if I am self aware of my tendencies and my lifestyle.

Am I making life decisions based on people in my life that has influenced me? Are they worth following? What does scripture say about it? Have I submitted myself to God's desires with my choices? Am I pleasing Him with the options that I have chosen? Have I exhausted all possibilities to which would help build the Kingdom and fulfill His will?

Do we even ask the right questions to know how to seek for the right answers?