There is a whole array of things to pray for at this moment of my life. I could pray for all these specifics and details as it constantly runs through my head over and over, reminding me of my circumstances. Often I would just in praying as it hits my heart at any moment, but I realized that even as I am moved to pray for the specifics, I could not finish my prayers. Not that I do not know what specifics to pray for, but rather something in me does not want me to proceed with those prayers. It however does prompt me to pray more for my heart.
I am reminded over and over again, even as it is so common for us to bring up specific items in prayers as we gather to pray, it is somehow missing some sort of mark for me. Not that we should not pray for specific items, but rather seeking after God's heart in the circumstances.
I have a job condition to pray for as my time is limited, I also have other heart issues that has been brought to my attention. I have issues about an unusual social circumstance that I am not entirely sure how to deal with. Not forgetting the common fears of things that may turn out the way I do not hope for. But in all these concerns, I could not complete these specific prayers but rather going in and look into my heart and ask God to reveal Himself to me first.
Concerns are often from fears that we are not seeing what we want. Realizing and reminded of this, my biggest prayer item is still going to God with my heart to trust and embrace His leading. I want to seek God to speak to my heart than anything else. Because I know that when my heart is connected rightfully with God, my perception and approach to everything else around me will be aligned in proper perspective, and so will my attitude.
This realization, or reminder, often leads to worship again. But more than anything is the worship that is beyond what we can make with words or even expressions, and it is a heart felt conviction of something about God that only leads to our acknowledgement of Him as 'I AM.'
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