In The Waiting

I watch videos on Facebook that speaks of the news of bad politics, racism and various other saddening endeavors. I have found myself to be easily affected through some of the things that watch and it compromises me emotionally.  What is worst is that I spiral into a hole of emotions that connects to various other events happened to me in the past, leading to a depressive state.

Since I have come to choose as carefully as I can with what I watch, so that I do not let things affect me. Although there are certain truths that I cannot avoid and deny because I want authenticity of the situation and what is happening out there in the world. but there is also a line drawn where I have to consciously make a decision to avoid it because I know it will affect my capability to do the work that I am called to do.

But the great question is to know where do I draw that line. How do I know what and how much to watch to not let myself fall into a emotional pit, but also not denying the reality of the world out there?

This is not a new question to me. For many years I have struggled with this and through much reflection through scripture, I am yet to figure out how to go about with it. There are those that have little problems with this and there are those like me that gets affected more easily. There are so much variables of which I find tiring to sift through to know what I should do at times.

God's providence and sovereignty has proven again and again superior.