In The Waiting

My obstacle yesterday that taunted me was the journey in the car...

Even as I do know that much of the feeling of anxiety comes from my leg situation that wants to constantly stretch but there is a big part of it that comes from my psychological fear.

My leg did felt a little restless yesterday and I was considering to call off the journey back and stay home alone. But I told myself that somehow I needed to make this trip. I kept telling myself that I want to look forward to it as there can be some unexpected good surprise that awaits me there.

So as I got into the car and started the journey I begin to loop those positive thoughts in my head at the beginning of the ride. With the music playing to worship songs and reminders about the goodness about God, I begin to feel at ease even with slight restlessness in my leg.

And for a moment there, one thought came to mind undeniably. That thought was simply telling me that God has given this one life to live. And even this life is to be lived for Him, it is also a precious one that I should embrace it as much as I can to the uncertainty that comes from it.

I know that there is always a possibility that things can go wrong due to experiences, but the point is that God has been a companion with me regardless of my acknowledgment. So I need to be reminded about the life that He has given for me to look forward to this life that He has led me to.

So throughout the trip, what occupied my mind was simply the sheer depth of the nature that surrounds me. I want to be that child again where I get awed by some of the simplest things and experiencing what was meant to be fascinating in all its beauty.