Reblogging

I see light at the end...

I am wondering if I should be picking blogging up. Maybe I should even reconsider if what I am doing is actually blogging or just a simple journaling.

But I do miss the contemplating of my inner thoughts and how it makes me feel. However I also see the consequences of dwelling too long in those thoughts. Where am I to strike that balance and maybe to the point where I can even open up the blog for public reading too.

I am down to my final 2 to 3 weeks here in Malaysia, hopefully. And my thoughts and feelings are starting to change. There was a moment when I felt a sense of comfort that i found for myself that staying would mean easier on certain things, but not so for my heart.

I hope that I am not fantasizing the life that I would perceive to live but I do find an exciting change for something that I feel like I am made to be and do.

All being said, I am also going back to a place that created a whole lot of deep issues. Almost like facing a past that I have no interest in recollecting in my mind. But there are bridges that needs to be mend and friendships to reconcile, and more importantly people to forgive.

I pray that I go back with a heart that is changed, at least a little better than before. Maybe then, this blog would be rebirth to something new.