Up and Down

I have not had much chances of taking pictures... well its more like being lazy to carry a camera around exposing my fingers to the cold (you know gloves get in the way of fidgeting little delicate buttons).

Pictures attract better attention than words do but I am not really in the mood to taking pictures lately. I remembered once I thought to myself that one day I will go to New York and do a lot of picture taking and do some journal-ling.  That was my writing phase, which I have kind of let go a little due to other immediate needs and attention.

This is a picture of my lunch on the table outside my door in the kitchen. Facing a window of a semi busy street, with people, stores and parking lots, not to mention cars honking without fail because patience is kind of expensive in this city. This picture is a reminder for me, an affirmation of God's providence.

There have been good and bad. I was face with some situations that really got on my nerve, yet there is always another side to the story to soften my heart. There were times when I doubt about myself and yet there were times I knew that God gave me something unique that no one else have. Food is cheap... some anyway, but I am not hoping to eat out all the time. I eat home as much as I can, but sometimes I really don't know what to eat or have anything to cook with. But somehow there is always something to eat, my landlady brings home food all the time seeing that she works for a restaurant. There are no lilies around but there are plenty of pigeons and they do get fed somewhere somehow...

As I walk through the streets in NY, I picture those who spend lots of time being on those floors high up in those buildings and what they do and how are they happy (if they are happy) with their job and lives. I imagine those penthouses on the top of some of the buildings and all they accomplish to be able to stay on those places... but I failed to notice What's higher than the penthouse... then I am happy being down here where my purpose is...

I am being looked after...