I am living in a time of mystery. I feel for those who are in my shoes, or where I was once at. But not everyone take this mystery the same. For many, it starts with a lot of fear and worry and others take it as a temporary challenge.
9 1/2 months ago, I embarked on a new journey that had filled with anxiety. For a big part of it, stemmed from a love I treasured. But this journey went sour with great fear and discouragement. I found myself at a lost of who I am. With great confidence, I started to doubt myself and my abilities, I started to regret some of the major decisions I have made, I started to feel desperate for something to hang on to.
So very often I jump into something believing in faith that God has this for me to get into. Of course, I don't know if it is God calling me until the very end where things start to show itself. Despite the hundredth time this has happened, it is still a new thing to me. The clarity of God's will bounces of uneven surfaces, I can't tell for sure if it is speaking to me.
1Kings 19:11-13 states the encounter of Elijah with God. Where strong winds that blew, the earthquake that shook and the fire that burned. The wind that broke rocks were like waves of uncertainty and possibilities that comes my way, the earthquake was like the reformation of my foundations and the fire was like a testing of my character and my heart. Yet in all these God was not revealing Himself but only by a gentle breeze that send chill to my very bones to realized that God was speaking with such articulacy with only a whisper.
So, as I reflect on recent events in my life and the little mysteries unfold by little, sobering, temperate gestures and signs. I find God to speak pretty loudly all the time. Just as only a trained ear that spots an off-tuned instrument, the definition is clear.
However the revelation of His answers always comes with timing...
9 1/2 months ago, I embarked on a new journey that had filled with anxiety. For a big part of it, stemmed from a love I treasured. But this journey went sour with great fear and discouragement. I found myself at a lost of who I am. With great confidence, I started to doubt myself and my abilities, I started to regret some of the major decisions I have made, I started to feel desperate for something to hang on to.
So very often I jump into something believing in faith that God has this for me to get into. Of course, I don't know if it is God calling me until the very end where things start to show itself. Despite the hundredth time this has happened, it is still a new thing to me. The clarity of God's will bounces of uneven surfaces, I can't tell for sure if it is speaking to me.
1Kings 19:11-13 states the encounter of Elijah with God. Where strong winds that blew, the earthquake that shook and the fire that burned. The wind that broke rocks were like waves of uncertainty and possibilities that comes my way, the earthquake was like the reformation of my foundations and the fire was like a testing of my character and my heart. Yet in all these God was not revealing Himself but only by a gentle breeze that send chill to my very bones to realized that God was speaking with such articulacy with only a whisper.
So, as I reflect on recent events in my life and the little mysteries unfold by little, sobering, temperate gestures and signs. I find God to speak pretty loudly all the time. Just as only a trained ear that spots an off-tuned instrument, the definition is clear.
However the revelation of His answers always comes with timing...
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