Lie Awake

In my weakness His strength is made known...

Many at times I feel like I have to put up with the world and to act like Jesus. But I should not, in fact I should not need to act because it is out of conviction and his Spirit that draws me to behave like Christ. But at the mean time, I am reminded to be human because in my humility God is constantly glorified through the miraculous things that He is doing. I need to be myself, the self that God created for his purpose, not one that lives to impress and please man.

They say timing is everything, deep down I believe in that. But right at this moment, left to myself in the room, alone... I am not pretending to be strong or patient... as I sit here, thoughts are running through my head with incredible speed. My world in my mind is moving so much faster than what reality perceives, I feel torn between two worlds.

I can't sleep, I can't settle my mind. Having to be once a person that thinks unceasingly, my mind is now being revived again to do its biding of the past. Don't get me wrong... this does not mean that I am troubled. Peace as promised of God still reigns in my heart, my mind is the one that is restless and is broken free to roam.