Anxiety

Exaggeration is the weapon of my enemy...

I have been given something to think about lately where I am presented with possibilities of why I behave the way that I do. As I consulted with a friend that is a professional, I came across the thought that my fears are heightened in my experience simply because I have anxiety and panic attack issues. Although not confirmed, I am beginning to see some of the symptoms that were being described by most psychologists.

In occurrences where it hits my fears, my heart and my mind races drastically and amplifies the problem twice as serious. Even as a common fear that other people face, my anxiety would take that fear in me and double it to put me into a state of crippling fear and paralysis.

I am flashing back at events that has happened in the past that fits into these situations, and all of them end the very same way. Almost like a thorn in the flesh of Paul, I fear that this might be the thorn that will never go away. The thought of this as a life long battle scares me, as well as those that are willing to come along side me to share this burden.