Focus

We do not always get what we want... I certainly did not get all I wanted. I have had dreams that has driven me to do pursue what I would think as to be the best for me. But in the end I never got what I worked for.

What I am saying is not to discourage people from working hard towards a goal. The goal gives us a direction to strive toward and by that I believe many of us are in need of setting goals. But what I am also saying is that our goals may come from a very secluded part of our hearts and minds that needs special attention.

Learning about my disabilities(even though from where I come from is not really seen as a disability), I realized that I have allowed my problems lead me into very broken moments and how it affect major decisions in my life. Even with the little things that plagues my emotions, I have been a slave to it in such that I often succumb to my fears and the deceptions that it has brought me to. 

What I am feeling today is not anything too surprising or even to discovering specific remedy to my problem. I do however got reminded by the fact that God really does complete everything that is lacking in me. God makes all connections come together to make sense and gives reason to everything that is happening. 

Simple as it is, I am reminded that God always makes His stance regardless of our conditions and our decisions. Surrendering to Him somehow seems like the most logical and wisest thing anyone can do.