In The Waiting

Father,

Thank you for my conscience that has led me to look up to You. I could have strayed away doing my own thing and wallowing into the depths of my insecurities but You stood in front of me and remind me that I am always hopeful.
I pray that I am obedient in all that I am asked to do, even though many at times I just do not want to do what You have asked me to. There are days when I struggle just to find myself want to draw close to You, and that I do not find any inclination to want to open the bible because I feel too restless. Sometimes all I want to do is to do my own things, indulge in myself and find no strength and interests in pursuing You. But I thank You for always being here, and more than that is I thank You for being gentle with me. You could have rained hard on me for my disobedience and my rebellion but You stood that faithfully showing me grace until I could want You again.
I pray that I will continue to be obedient the best way possible, and I pray that You give me strength and motivation for that. I pray that I will not give up on You.
I pray that my faith does not waiver in the midst of the things that I am going through but remind me through them that You are here working wonders and allow me to see those wonders. Father, I long to see Your glory and find myself strengthened in my faith and joy in this pursuit.
I thank you for the little provision that has been given to me, that I can depend on You at every corner of my path. I thank you that You fill me in ways that I cannot explain. I pray that I will hold on tightly to Your promises that brings so much hope. Teach me to trust in You more in ways that I cannot figure out on my own.
I feel like a child, oblivious to so many things and how to go about them. I feel paralyzed in so many ways and fear. So walk with me, let me sense Your presence at every step of the way. I pray this very same prayers for those around me, and that You'll be the same for them as You have been for me.
Help us to see that You are so much better than any other things that always seem to distract us. Father, allow us to end each day in worship to You. Fill this week with so much of You that it is so undeniable. Protect us from temptations that brings unforeseen destruction, protect us from ourselves and the sin that is so prevalent in us. 

In Jesus' name
Amen