Expectations

I am reminded lately of the security that comes only from God. The older I become, the more I find insecurity among people. Not that it is any news but rather to find sin more and more apparent.

Even as I look at myself and all that I have done throughout my past, I am aware how the insecurities that I have given to others. So with this, I am constantly trying put to my place to thread around in humility before I leap with pride unconsciously.

The world around us are constantly filled with distractions and lies that shape the awareness of sin and holiness. For the most part, people do not consciously think about whether their single little action would result in sin, simply because by doing so would be rather stressful. So many of us just go with the flow, until an apparent unfavorable consequence arises, then we will deal with it. In other words, staying away from sinning is such mind consuming practice that drains the energy and life out of us, so we just work with apologies and not avoidance... we put out fires than to focus on preventing fires.

So sin lingers around us, and as time passes by, we slowly lose touch on the severity of our sins and lead a deceptive life that claims normality. What used to be down right taboo will and is now a socially acceptable norm. With that, we live side by side these sins unaware of its hazards.

Everyone of us carry those hazards, some of us are more self aware of them and some don't. So with that, we mingle with abandonment and gamble the possibility of not hurting the other person with our vices. But of course there are some that goes the other extreme and close up and forever hide oneself from experiencing humanity.

My expectations have been molded lately to accommodate disappointment, because there is no way that in the conditions that we live in, especially in this city, we can find painless inhibitions.