I decided to watch this series very recently, although I have in mins to watch it in while since hearing about how people have been saying good reviews about it.
But lately there was a news about how a young girl killed herself after watching the series and It beckons me to watch it even more, and so I did.
The series talks about her journey through recorded tapes about those of which led to her ultimate decision to end her life and at the very end of the series, the last episode, there was a very literal graphic scene of the suicide attempt and it hit it hard for me. Knowing that I do not do too well with gore, I was faced with the scene that literally got me to my feet as I prance around the room trying to shake off the feeling of which I found myself mirroring and it is utterly unpleasant to say the least.
As much as there are other horror films that show graphic gore, this however was on such a horrific glimpse simply because it was merely just cutting but rather its the weight of the whole 13 episode worth of pain and heartache that landed itself into the manifestation of the cutting.
I did not prepared myself for such a scene and for some reason I could not miss it and did not want to miss it and now it lingers in my memory as a scary thought.
I remembered once when I was younger and experienced my first breakup and how that took me over the edge to considered suicide, it was a familiar feeling. Although my experiences were not with hostility but it was a huge pain due to the fact that I was and still am a weakling to the matters of the heart.
Bullying is no joke and its a constant reminder, as I used to be bullied when I was younger. But I took off the stance of playing the victim and wondered to myself if I ever played the role of the bully and not know about it. Would I be able to endure the guilt if someone's life was affected for the worst due to my actions? Would I fold and bring myself into abyss of depression?
As much as I do sympathize with the victims of bullying and abuse, for some reason at this age, there is a safety of living in the role of a victim than in being the victimizer. But this is just me, maybe as a mild experienced victim of bullying that did not send me over the edge. But then again, even if I were in an extreme case of bullying or abuse, I also cannot deny the grace of God that is also evident.
Pain is everywhere and something needs to be done. The question I feel like we should be asking more is...
Are you telling of His wonderful grace?
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