In The Waiting

I want to say its a beautiful morning and...

I woke up at a time that I should be, although I prefer that I could wake up earlier. I have appreciated the early mornings where everyone else is asleep.

Yes, even as I am still adjusting to NY; I am also rediscovering a new person in me that stems from suffering and breakthrough. So much of me remains the same where I am still rather introverted, I am still fearful of many things, I am still easily overwhelmed by tasks that most people would be okay with. However, there is a confidence that has now come with me.

This confidence came from suffering and breakthrough as said earlier. Much of my reservedness is due to being aware of my weaknesses and how shameful I can get with them in front of people. But today that shame or even shyness has been dissipating simply for the fact that I have been through suffering and seen God helped me overcome so much of it.

There is this strength of a survivor that speaks boldness and volumes that is unshakable. I have no visible scars to show but I do have a story to tell and I need to remind myself that all of these stories goes beyond my very life, for all that I have been through is used in some way for the Kingdom.