What are You Running After?

Last night I had trouble sleeping, very so often I would put on a cooking show on my computer and watch it until I fall asleep. So last night I saw an episode about steaks in America. The show featured various famous restaurants in the country that produces some of the best awarded steaks. In shows like these, customers are often interviewed to rave about their experiences in the food that they eat.

I remembered about 5 years ago, I had an experience of discovery to find myself getting into food. My first few trials were having to learn to make a proper piece of steak, and I ended up eating it for more than 15 to 20 times within a 3 month period. I could remembered the very essence of what caught my desire to eat and cook it.

What I saw last night in that episode was everything I learned about steaks and how enticing it was to when I first got into it. But something changed...

As I was staring at people enjoying their steaks, I felt a sense of disgust. Or maybe disgust is not the right word to describe it. I felt like having a piece of steak made me felt uneasy, it felt overly luxurious. But I did not felt that way 5 years ago, but today it felt a little overwhelming.

I remembered as a kid, I would crave for a McDonald's value meal but today it means nothing to me... not that I loath it but it is rather unnecessary. I reason in my head about the cost and the portion of what it gives me, not to mentioned the long-term health dis-benefits of frequent consumption of it. It feels the same way with steak, in the sense that its rather unnecessary to enjoy a steak to the point of craving it.

America is such a luxurious nation, and yet poverty still runs in the country, having the poorest of poor standing right next to one that probably eats steak once every week. I frequent a coffee place during the nights and find myself observing all kinds of people stepping into the shop for shelter simply because it opens 24 hours a day, people who are drunk, crack-heads, homeless and some who suffer from mental illness. 'What a shame!' said a man as I was exiting the place, describing the brokenness of the city, and to much truth to his insight.

Yet we hear form news almost every single day the struggles of businesses staying afloat, simply to maintain their overly-lushed lifestyles... squeezing through every margin of profit and to feed on the bondage of wealth. America is slowly dying this way, and what's worst is that the church is slowly falling with it...

What good will it be for someone to gain the whole world, yet forfeit their soul? 

Or what can anyone give in exchange for their soul?

~Matthew 16:26~